The thoughts in my mind bring me another risk.
My Semester 1 result also.
I make up my mind first:
1. If my BM didn't get credit, I will leave nursing for good and do interior design.
2. If my Semester 1 didn't reach my minimum GPA score, I will also leave nursing for good also.
I can't take it when some incident in my head makes me remember that I every night before I sleep. It's difficult to let go especially it happen in front of me. Some more I will get terrified when I see dead body like my late grandmother funeral that period. I can never eat properly and I can go starving for 3 days if not mistaken (Last Office). It's hard to heal.
It makes me think that nursing doesn't have a life. Even my friends pity on me and it's hard to get together with them. I really miss them back from the days we used to be together. I still like to travel and shopping...
I still like designing in the sense that I mix colour and draw funny n funky stuff.
My Dad said before:
You don't do it to just earn money, do it with PASSION and love your job for many years to come... without regrets.I will tell my mom about it on Thursday after my morning shift... until then i will make my decision with her.
------ preparing for afternoon shift, Signing Off...... <3 you ALL, Peace!!