B.A.A. - BUSY week AHEAD AUGUST

I saw J again while driving to college again last Tuesday.. I hate that... what most of my friends said is 'FATE'. Nonsense!! This kind of fate is just coincidence... Because he stays nearby my secondary school. It's just happen, eye to eye looking to each other without a wink...

Final week for SEM 2, till then still a bunch of work incomplete. Even I have problem using photoshop to touch up my work.... Totally very BUSY this week...

Here's a gift to YOU that I will win my Client's heart on selecting my design.

----- AutoCAD time!! - Signing OFF!! -----

Overloaded

3 more weeks left till Sem break... there's so many to finish. Sometime I may think I'm a workaholic.. I never feel tired till I lie down, eyes close till the next day... Sleepless, Panda-eyes, dark circle are mostly the common I will come out from my mouth.. But I NEVER regret what I did this far... B and 10 are always my supporter wherever we do and always will do together... Never Alone...


Predictably I screwed when I choose J as a leader and never do as a part. Keep telling to myself to keep clam and cool... But still deadline are almost here, still in chilling way... Sometimes I just want to blast myself off; in another words saying without thinking (scolding)..


D always trying to trigger / pisses me off whenever I doing my work seriously... I hate that.. I have a Hunch that this D trying to get me over to him... Ya.. dream on MAN.. 'YOU ARE NOT MY TYPE' SORRY~ =P


I hate this (<3) for now.. It's just being annoyed when I rest my brain on screen for too long.. As specially that H.. I will not forgive you till I rest in peace... Don't let me see you in the future, begging me.. There's no CURE for sorry...


I just Hope my design can buy off my customer's taste!! fighting!!


---tittle post stated, time to resume--- Rachel

ID complicated Life

I'm back again...
with new style of life..
a complete 360 degree change..
now i'm already semester 2 week 9..
come to think that i have met such nice, supportive friends and lecturers..
even i didn't think that my life can be such a wonderful some times..
put in all the effort that i have can be a biggest winner to myself!!


Already few months past..
after the incident that he did to me..
i NEVER trusted any of my guy friends any more..  but not all...
is like been a threat to me..
some times a girl can be hurt by him just because he is just to good to him..
RUBBISH just to say that i don't have feelings for you, it's over..
I just want to tell 'him' and all the guys out there:
"I don't need you to depend on just because you said you loved me, 
that it just a LIE,
thanks for bugging in and out of my life just for the sake of FUN, and don't you even dare to come back to my life saying you regret living, YOU MORON..
screw you for the rest of your life on EARTH.."
FYI: until now, I'm still in one piece.. Thank YOU!!


-busy with Site Surveying Draft and new project for Cafe Design, signing out..-

HEARTRhythm

Well, it happen today.
Because I saw his from the back,
I know who he is.
My heart pumps very strong.
and I didn't see him with eye to eye.
That's very disappointing of me.

But I do consider as FATE.

Free-DOM

Oh. Finally free...
Not everyone knows about my absence.
But I will miss them after this.

For now i will laze around and go holiday.
I will tell when it is the right timing.
So sorry Group 73.

decisions; period of time

This few days I keep thinking about my SPM(U) result.
The thoughts in my mind bring me another risk.
My Semester 1 result also.
I make up my mind first:
1. If my BM didn't get credit, I will leave nursing for good and do interior design.
2. If my Semester 1 didn't reach my minimum GPA score, I will also leave nursing for good also.
......leave quietly......
I can't take it when some incident in my head makes me remember that I every night before I sleep. It's difficult to let go especially it happen in front of me. Some more I will get terrified when I see dead body like my late grandmother funeral that period. I can never eat properly and I can go starving for 3 days if not mistaken (Last Office). It's hard to heal. 
It makes me think that nursing doesn't have a life. Even my friends pity on me and it's hard to get together with them. I really miss them back from the days we used to be together. I still like to travel and shopping... 
I still like designing in the sense that I mix colour and draw funny n funky stuff.
My Dad said before:

You don't do it to just earn money, do it with PASSION and love your job for many years to come... without regrets. 

I will tell my mom about it on Thursday after my morning shift... until then i will make my decision with her.  

------ preparing for afternoon shift, Signing Off...... <3 you ALL, Peace!!

October 9

Finally I re-open my blog.

It's been a while since last year I didn't open,

Last February wrote once & didn't bother.

and now,

I will try to write once a week.

To reflect what I have been doing and motivate myself.

Well last WEEK......

It's a exam week. Tired.

A lot of things I didn't finish revising.

I even not sure I can pass or not.

but my OSCE confirm pass, X doubt.

I will put more effort to do my best for P&P2, BMS 1 & BMS 2

我真的不懂我在心和脑里相什么......

一直想‘他’......

如果‘他’真的暗恋我,

那’他‘应该message我.

想起去年时,

我们第一次面对面讲话.

平时我看你,你看我......

拴了,

我们如果有缘分,

一定会在路上碰面得......

doing NURSING is not that easy... Signing OFF~